HOLYMAMA.
dont read
nothing interesting
just a ranting post of a life.
walao
i feel dumb and stupid.
im super not satisfied with myself these few days.
im always regretting things i've done,
yet i always tell myself nothing's wrong.
im always making my final decisions at the wrong time,
then its too late.
godddddddd, i feel useless right now.
indeed, every beginning has its consequences ;
i feel damn demotivated right now,
its like so what i seem to be studying, nothing gets in.
so its not really counted as studying anymore.
what the hell, i can study for 6 hours, but i dont feel that i've learnt anything.
ohmygod, ask me what i've learnt today, alright other than maths.
i'll probably tell you nothing else.
i know its wrong to think of play play play everyday.
im sorry, but i cant help it.
all i want to do after i get home is to sleep, but ohmygod.
there's plenty of things to be done.
know your limits ;
i thought i know mine, but i was wrong.
im always wrong, when will i ever get it right?
yep, perhaps never.
i thought i could handle, but it was too much.
why didnt i saw it coming, why.
great, now i just put on a burden on myself.
you're stupid huiqing.
you are.
i thought i always think before i act.
yes, i do think, by the time im done with my thinking, its gone.
too lateeeeee.
blame it on yourself,
you ended up in this state because of yourself.
fuck.
dont take up too much of your handling range.
the thought of music just freaks me out right now.
the amount of things that i've got to memorise.
im not even good in any of the components, just kill me okay.
its super depressing.
i thought it was easy memorising, yes.
i could memorise, so what.
i hate studying right now, i dont know why.
i just hate the sight of books,
i hate the sight of all those stupid formulas,
those stupid wordly pages.
im near giving up.
No comments please, thankyou.